You're Not Behind In Life; You're Just Living on a Timeline That Was Never Yours.
Abstract:
This essay
discusses how this psychological feeling of being behind in life is a structure
of perception that has been created by society, but not an absolute fact. It
implies that schedules which we have inherited through culture, comparison, and
the desire to be approved of tend to build up to insecurity, self-doubt, and
ambition that is not exactly our own. Once one takes back the ownership of
their personal time, then they will move beyond living in a state of urgency
and live in a state of alignment. By philosophical meditation, psychological
acumen, and effective assimilation, this essay hypothesizes that the core of
successfulness is not quantified in terms of pace or conformity, but rather in
terms of honesty, integrity, and congruence.
The
Unspoken Anxiety People Don’t Speak about.
It is some
silent form of anxiety that is not proclaimed loudly.
It doesn’t
erupt. It lingers.
It manifests
in small instances, when you scroll through a social media feed and see that
someone has been promoted, when you hear that a person of your age has been
promoted, when you are at a wedding, or when you read the news that somebody
has figured it out.
And at that
point, something in you knots.
You start to
ask questions that you did not intend to ask:
Am I late?
Did I waste
time?
Should I be
further by now?
There is
nothing in your outside world that may have altered. And even within, all seems
to be out of place.
This is not
just a comparison.
This is the
silence of having to live on a schedule that was not your own.
The
Delusion of Being Behind.
The
perception of lagging in life is hardly on time.
It is about
measurement.
In particular,
it is concerning the quantification of your life with the indicators that were
not selected by you.
Since we are
small children, we are born into a standardized chain of expectations:
- Meet academic
goals at a specific age.
- Make a second
career out of it.
- Be
financially independent in time.
- Get into a
lasting affair within a socially acceptable period.
- Achieve
apparent success by a particular age.
These
expectations are not necessarily damaging. They can provide structure.
However, the
issue emerges once they are taken as universal schedules, as opposed to
optional frameworks.
Once you
subconsciously change to another timeline that is not in line with your nature,
values, or situations, then any deviation will start to feel like a failure
even when it is the right path.
You are not
behind.
You are just
taking the measure of your life by that of someone else.
Part I: The
Family Timeline Of Never-Questioning.
The majority
of the timelines are passed on and then reviewed.
They are a
product of family pressure, school structures, cultural discourse, and more and
more, of virtual comparison cultures.
We absorb
them passively:
- “By 25, you
should be stable.”
- “By 30, you
should be settled.”
- “By 35, you
should be established.”
We hardly
ever consider the question of who comes up with these markers. And to whom are
they actually working?
The reason is
that as you check them out, you will realize that these timelines were created
on averages and not on individuals.
They assume:
- Equal access
to opportunity
- Equivalent
psychological maturity.
- Uniform life
circumstances
- The journeys
of emotions are predictable.
Human lives
are not developed in regular patterns.
- Other
individuals also use their youthful years to recover after trauma.
- Some spend
them exploring.
- Others use
them to take care of families.
- Others find
their meaning in a late way.
- Others lose
it all and start afresh.
These are not
deviations.
They are the
variations of the human experience.
But when the
rigid inherited pattern of things is applied to the variations which occur in
nature, the variations are attributed to delays.
- Comparison is
not only robbers of delight. It is the creator of artificial urgency.
Part II: The
Psychological Price of Feeling Left Behind.
Living on
borrowed time is psychologically devastating.
1. Chronic
Anxiety:
When you
think that you are late, each choice is pressured.
Clarity is no
longer an option that you make.
You are
responding desperately.
Urgency
narrows perception. It distorts judgment.
It causes you
to devote haste to what should be straight.
2. Decision
Paralysis:
This is
ironic because the need to keep up is usually at the cost of inaction.
Since each
decision is now high-stakes.
What would
happen to you should you take the wrong course?
What if it
wastes more time?
And thus,
rather than going on, you freeze.
3. Skepticism
Masquerading as Promotion.
A lot of
individuals think that they are very ambitious.
Yet behind
that aspiration, there is a lesser passion:
I am not
enough yet.
Even success
is not stable when you are driven by lack and not a purpose.
Since you are
not building on self-trust.
You are
making a compensation of doubt.
4.
Directionless Effort of Burnout.
It is still
tiresome to run in the wrong direction.
Going after
the milestones that are not in line with your inner values will result in
energy depletion rather than giving you energy.
You can
attain the end, and yet be hollow.
- Even your
successes pass through the air when you are not on your timeline.
Part III: The Real
Growth The Truth.
Growth is
rarely linear.
It is
seasonal.
And every
season is fulfilling a different psychological and existential role.
There are
seasons of:
- Learning -
where you amass the knowledge with no apparent outcome.
- Healing-
processing the past and reconstituting internally.
- Experimentation
- one of the phases, when you experiment, make some mistakes, learn, change the
way of doing things, and repeat.
- Reconstruction-
rebuilding identity when disrupted.
- Integration -
in which insights are eventually converted into stable patterns.
There are
only a limited number of seasons that can be seen as successful on the surface.
But seasons
are all that is required.
A tree does
not bear fruit throughout the whole year.
Periods of
root construction, unknown development, and internal organization exist.
But we do not
say of a tree in winter behind.
We know that
winter is in the cycle.
Why are then,
do we deprive ourselves of the same cognition?
- A off season
is not a wasted season.
- It is usually
a make-over season.
Part IV:
Taking Back Your Personal Timeline.
The first,
but radical step to reclaiming your life is:
You cease to
ask, where am I supposed to be now?
And begin to
ask, What really is right to me?
This involves
a conscious self-enquiry.
Ask Yourself:
- Which type of
work will be meaningful to me, not in terms of titles or status
- In which kind
of lifestyle can I perform psychologically well?
- What are the relationships that support my emotional needs and that are a fit with my values?
- What is the
definition of success that is not performance-based?
In responding
to these questions frankly, you might take a different route than what it is
supposed to be.
Failure is
not that deviation.
It is
authorship.
To recover
your time, you write your own life in your own words.
Not in terms
of comparison, but in terms of truth.
Part V:
Between Urgency and Alignment.
This is the
most significant internal change:
From:
“I need to
catch up.”
To:
“I need to
align.”
As pressure
builds up because of urgency.
But congruity
brings out lucidity.
And sanity
brings about long-lasting action.
When you are
aligned:
- You work with
focus, not panic
- Not in spurts
of desperation, you move.
- You do not
make choices out of fear of being left out.
And smooth
with time, harmony bears fruit in not only visible but satisfying results.
The beginning
of the alignment is slower.
However, it
is more powerful in the long-term.
As it is
constructed out of truth, rather than comparison.
Part VI:
The Daring to Be Misunderstood.
As soon as
you come out of the standard schedule, something different occurs.
You are more
difficult to classify.
Your actions
might not be comprehended by the people.
They may
question your pace.
There are
times when people take their own fears and insecurities and cast them onto you.
And this is
where most of the people recede into conformity.
Since it is
unpleasant to be misunderstood.
But here is
the deeper truth:
The full
comprehension of life by all is frequently a life that was not at all chosen.
Any
worthwhile journey contains moments when other people are not aware of what you
are creating.
You have to
acquire the emotional ability to be misinterpreted - without giving up your
focus.
The expense
of universal approval is, because, very frequently, a personal betrayal.
You need not
be punctual to the world.
You must not
be late with your life.
Part VII:
Implementing it into Practice - Resetting Your Inner Timeline.
Learning does
not make a behavioural change unless this learning is reflected on and acted
upon.
Then here is
a simple reflective system to start reclaiming your time.
Reflective
Questions
In what areas
of my life do I consider myself to be lagging?
Success in any of the above aspects requires that the
aspect is well managed and controlled.
Who sets the
standards of this sentiment?
(Family,
society, peers, social media, past self)
What would I
really want if comparison were done away with?
What is one small, practical step I can take this week?
Daily
Micro-Practice
At the end of
each day, ask:
- Was this
pressure or alignment that made me do it?
- Am I making a
step that I find valuable?
These few
thoughts made you stop, and slowly you are brought into time again.
They take
your life off responding to pressure and into action with purpose and
purposefulness.
Conclusion:
You Are Not Late -You Are Unfolding.
You are not
behind.
You are not
late.
You are not
failing.
You are
unfolding.
At your own
rhythm.
In a series
of seasons of your own.
It is in a
fashion that cannot be standardized.
Some lives
bloom early.
Some bloom
slowly.
Some bloom
more than once.
It is not
what time you are in flower.
It does not
matter whether your life increases in reality or not in fiction.
Since living
according to the schedule of another person can seem impressive externally,
But it will
never be in harmony internally.
And when you
quit following the schedule of another person...
You end up
living your own life.
Aphoristic
Closing Line:
The
right life is not the one that occurs most quickly-that is, it is not the one
that occurs most quickly-but the one that is the straightest. It is the one
that occurs honestly.
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